Keep smiling unconsciously

I seem to be smiling to myself a little more than usual... So many a time I'm lost in thought and when I realize, I'm smiling... He does not want to commit and I totally understand why... But is actions are way too obvious... Although he keeps telling me that he cannot give me a future, I must be borne yesterday to not understand what he means... Never have I experience what it is like to be doted by a man... His tender loving care is just way too much for me to deny... Although he refuse to admit, I know... He keeps trying to say the opposite but I still know... I know that it's too early to determine if this relationship will end up anywhere but I just can't resist imagining... No doubt, the only problem I might face if there was ever a future between us will be my parents... I can't imagine how they will react to him... It will be over my dead body that they will allow me to be with him... Whatever it is, even if there isn't a future, even if there isn't even a tomorrow, I'm really happy for today... For what he has done for me today... For his care and concern today... For his 温柔，体贴 today...